STRESS!!

Hello Lovelies,

That stress got me. It got me bad.

With two sick parents (one mine, one my boyfriend's) and a quick trip to ICU for a brother it's been quite the 6 weeks I can tell you.

My boyfriend's Dad is of an age and state of health that he will need care for the rest of his life. This is something that you are never prepared for, and I can see how hard it is for everyone concerned to see that funny, willful man, who abhorred mindless cruelty to animals, just wither into a shell of his former self. That is something that I don't think anyone is prepared for. We can make plans for our retirement, let our children and relations know what our wishes are concerning care. But you just can't prepare anyone for a permanent decline in health due to old age.

I have half written a few posts about wearing white, I will finish them off in the next week or so and let you all know how it feels to be the woman in white and not a bride.

So raw food. I have a lot to post, there is normally a lot to be said when stress comes into the frame. For now, I will just say this.

I think my body is overrun by toxins from bad eating. This is going to get a bit graphic, so if you are squeamish, this is the time to go look at bunnies. I've started to get rather large spots in my armpits. I know that this is a warning signal of something serious, so back to being good to myself. You know, doing what I KNOW I should have been doing all along.

Today food wise was a game of two halfs. I made myself 2l of juice for the day, unfortunately I seem to have developed an allergy to the type of melon that I juiced, and of course I coughed every time I took a swig. So this evening on my way to the hospital I had a bag of chips. Now I know this was bad, and I feel physically bad for it. This seems to be what happens when I don't have the right foods with me.

Tomorrow will be better, and tomorrow I will tell you why,