Hello Lovelies,
There is a woman on an aeroplane, right now as I type, flying back to Ireland from Australia. She is coming to see her Dad and lend some much needed moral support to her family.
I can't wait to see her and to welcome her home. Neither can her brothers, or her Mum.
Welcome home you little star, we all missed you.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
STRESS!!
Hello Lovelies,
That stress got me. It got me bad.
With two sick parents (one mine, one my boyfriend's) and a quick trip to ICU for a brother it's been quite the 6 weeks I can tell you.
My boyfriend's Dad is of an age and state of health that he will need care for the rest of his life. This is something that you are never prepared for, and I can see how hard it is for everyone concerned to see that funny, willful man, who abhorred mindless cruelty to animals, just wither into a shell of his former self. That is something that I don't think anyone is prepared for. We can make plans for our retirement, let our children and relations know what our wishes are concerning care. But you just can't prepare anyone for a permanent decline in health due to old age.
I have half written a few posts about wearing white, I will finish them off in the next week or so and let you all know how it feels to be the woman in white and not a bride.
So raw food. I have a lot to post, there is normally a lot to be said when stress comes into the frame. For now, I will just say this.
I think my body is overrun by toxins from bad eating. This is going to get a bit graphic, so if you are squeamish, this is the time to go look at bunnies. I've started to get rather large spots in my armpits. I know that this is a warning signal of something serious, so back to being good to myself. You know, doing what I KNOW I should have been doing all along.
Today food wise was a game of two halfs. I made myself 2l of juice for the day, unfortunately I seem to have developed an allergy to the type of melon that I juiced, and of course I coughed every time I took a swig. So this evening on my way to the hospital I had a bag of chips. Now I know this was bad, and I feel physically bad for it. This seems to be what happens when I don't have the right foods with me.
Tomorrow will be better, and tomorrow I will tell you why,
That stress got me. It got me bad.
With two sick parents (one mine, one my boyfriend's) and a quick trip to ICU for a brother it's been quite the 6 weeks I can tell you.
My boyfriend's Dad is of an age and state of health that he will need care for the rest of his life. This is something that you are never prepared for, and I can see how hard it is for everyone concerned to see that funny, willful man, who abhorred mindless cruelty to animals, just wither into a shell of his former self. That is something that I don't think anyone is prepared for. We can make plans for our retirement, let our children and relations know what our wishes are concerning care. But you just can't prepare anyone for a permanent decline in health due to old age.
I have half written a few posts about wearing white, I will finish them off in the next week or so and let you all know how it feels to be the woman in white and not a bride.
So raw food. I have a lot to post, there is normally a lot to be said when stress comes into the frame. For now, I will just say this.
I think my body is overrun by toxins from bad eating. This is going to get a bit graphic, so if you are squeamish, this is the time to go look at bunnies. I've started to get rather large spots in my armpits. I know that this is a warning signal of something serious, so back to being good to myself. You know, doing what I KNOW I should have been doing all along.
Today food wise was a game of two halfs. I made myself 2l of juice for the day, unfortunately I seem to have developed an allergy to the type of melon that I juiced, and of course I coughed every time I took a swig. So this evening on my way to the hospital I had a bag of chips. Now I know this was bad, and I feel physically bad for it. This seems to be what happens when I don't have the right foods with me.
Tomorrow will be better, and tomorrow I will tell you why,
Thursday, May 22, 2008
A Change of Shade
Hello Everyone,
Now this post is really nothing to do with veganism, raw food or any food. Please feel free to yawn and stop reading here.
I have it in my head to start seeing what it feels like to dress differently.
Now I am not about to start to wear a ballgown everywhere I go. Although that would be an experiment in self that I would happily do.
I am planning on trying a new colour on for size. Normally, almost every day that I live, I wear black, mostly from head to toe. Every. Single. Day. Sometimes I will mix things up and wear a bit of red, but the clothes that I wear all the time are black.
Now as stylish (and lazy) this is of me, it has not gone unnoticed by my work colleagues. When we were told that it was OK to come into the office in normal clothes, one of the more sensible men in the office quipped "So, does that mean that you are going to come in wearing white?"
A couple of days later I was reading an article in the New York Times online about five people who only wore one colour.
An idea was born. What would I feel like if I dressed from head to toe in white instead of my wardrobe staple of black? Would people react to me differently? Would I be happier? Would my boss give me a pay rise? Or would people just think I was unstable?
So yesterday, I took a bit of a long lunch, bit the bullet and bought myself some new wardrobe staples. White trousers, white t-shirts and white socks which are a particular pet peeve.
While I was looking round the shops I noticed that it was actually very easy to pick out the white clothes, they shone out from the others, you could just see them. Even better there were lots of them in stock as I'm not in so much competition like when I go shopping for black clothes. This could either be a good ting or a bad sign. Time will tell.
I'm challenging myself, just for fun and perhaps a bit of personal development, to wear white for a whole month. So for the month of June, I will wear white, and no doubt do a LOT of laundry.
Now this post is really nothing to do with veganism, raw food or any food. Please feel free to yawn and stop reading here.
I have it in my head to start seeing what it feels like to dress differently.
Now I am not about to start to wear a ballgown everywhere I go. Although that would be an experiment in self that I would happily do.
I am planning on trying a new colour on for size. Normally, almost every day that I live, I wear black, mostly from head to toe. Every. Single. Day. Sometimes I will mix things up and wear a bit of red, but the clothes that I wear all the time are black.
Now as stylish (and lazy) this is of me, it has not gone unnoticed by my work colleagues. When we were told that it was OK to come into the office in normal clothes, one of the more sensible men in the office quipped "So, does that mean that you are going to come in wearing white?"
A couple of days later I was reading an article in the New York Times online about five people who only wore one colour.
An idea was born. What would I feel like if I dressed from head to toe in white instead of my wardrobe staple of black? Would people react to me differently? Would I be happier? Would my boss give me a pay rise? Or would people just think I was unstable?
So yesterday, I took a bit of a long lunch, bit the bullet and bought myself some new wardrobe staples. White trousers, white t-shirts and white socks which are a particular pet peeve.
While I was looking round the shops I noticed that it was actually very easy to pick out the white clothes, they shone out from the others, you could just see them. Even better there were lots of them in stock as I'm not in so much competition like when I go shopping for black clothes. This could either be a good ting or a bad sign. Time will tell.
I'm challenging myself, just for fun and perhaps a bit of personal development, to wear white for a whole month. So for the month of June, I will wear white, and no doubt do a LOT of laundry.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
A Measure of Success
So, over the past two weeks, I have been doing well. Yaay me!
This is roughly what my daily food looks like.
Breakfast
Flax seed smoothie
2 tbsp Flax soaked over night in water)
2 dates, prunes or figs
A little fruit (a medium banana, two small slices of melon, a handful of green grapes)
Lunch
Green salad
Mixed leaves
A small avocado
Two (or three) tomatoes
Half a red pepper or two grated carrots.
A chopped banana or some green grapes
A few prunes
2-3 tbsp pumpkin seeds
Soy milk
Yes, I do pour the soy milk over the fruit and pumpkin seeds and eat it like a breakfast cereal.
Dinner is more of a mixed bag. Breakfast and lunch tend to be a bit more eat so that you have eaten. During the week, I look after myself for breakfast and lunch, but for dinner I eat mostly with my boyfriend, so I normally make something that we will both eat and I try to make it a meal full of vegetables be they cooked or raw.
A favourite of mine of vegan pho soup, with LOTS of bok choi, garlic and not so many noodles. I've found that if I am eating enough fruits and vegetables, then my body isn't telling me that it is desperate for bread and other carbohydrate dense food. Sometimes I give into chips or pasta, but that's only once a week.
I do snack if I am hungry, or stressed. Normally an organic apple or some pumpkin seeds fit the bill. I'm not the best water drinker, although I think I manage about a litre a day, I do however manage to drink over 1.5L in roibos tea, so my fluid intake is plenty.
As for my health, I have started to feel like my body is stronger and a little weight is coming off. And this is with only two raw meals a day, I wonder how good I will be feeling when I manage to release the need for cooked food completely?
This is roughly what my daily food looks like.
Breakfast
Flax seed smoothie
2 tbsp Flax soaked over night in water)
2 dates, prunes or figs
A little fruit (a medium banana, two small slices of melon, a handful of green grapes)
Lunch
Green salad
Mixed leaves
A small avocado
Two (or three) tomatoes
Half a red pepper or two grated carrots.
A chopped banana or some green grapes
A few prunes
2-3 tbsp pumpkin seeds
Soy milk
Yes, I do pour the soy milk over the fruit and pumpkin seeds and eat it like a breakfast cereal.
Dinner is more of a mixed bag. Breakfast and lunch tend to be a bit more eat so that you have eaten. During the week, I look after myself for breakfast and lunch, but for dinner I eat mostly with my boyfriend, so I normally make something that we will both eat and I try to make it a meal full of vegetables be they cooked or raw.
A favourite of mine of vegan pho soup, with LOTS of bok choi, garlic and not so many noodles. I've found that if I am eating enough fruits and vegetables, then my body isn't telling me that it is desperate for bread and other carbohydrate dense food. Sometimes I give into chips or pasta, but that's only once a week.
I do snack if I am hungry, or stressed. Normally an organic apple or some pumpkin seeds fit the bill. I'm not the best water drinker, although I think I manage about a litre a day, I do however manage to drink over 1.5L in roibos tea, so my fluid intake is plenty.
As for my health, I have started to feel like my body is stronger and a little weight is coming off. And this is with only two raw meals a day, I wonder how good I will be feeling when I manage to release the need for cooked food completely?
Friday, May 9, 2008
Un-blocking
So on the subject of feeling blocked, this is what is starting to work for me. A flax seed smoothie.
A woman at work had been told by a dietician to drink, and I quote “flax seeds, soaked in water overnight, and blended until they form a milky drink”. Now I have tried this, and although the flax and water mix did indeed go milky in colour, it also went rather snotty in texture. Although this is something that I can manage to pull a face, hold my nose and swallow, it’s not really enjoyment.
I have been variously creative about this problem; this is when I struck on the flax seed smoothie. Actually this is rather simple, in fact so simple that I can’t believe that it has taken me a while to come up with.
All I do is this, blend other things in with the flax and water and that seems to either mask the snottyness or to not allow it to happen. I don’t know which, I’m not a chemist or food technician, and if I was I would tell you. If you know, would you please let me in on this?
So, some good things to blend with your flax and water are:-
A banana
A few grapes
A banana and some prunes
Ripe mango
I tried a little frozen fruit as it has been hot in Dublin for the past week or so, and that’s not so good.
I’m also conscious that flax is a good source of omega 3, something that I am not 100% sure where else I would get as a vegan. From the limited reading that I have done about flax it seems that it is one of the modern snake oils of things that you should consume regularly. I mean, anything that is reported to lower cholesterol, guard against heart trouble, boosts the immune system, control haemorrhoids and diverticular disorders, reduced the incidences of various cancers, lowers high blood pressure, improves general skin condition AND make you a cup of rooibos while you are talking to the cat, can’t be sniffed at.
A woman at work had been told by a dietician to drink, and I quote “flax seeds, soaked in water overnight, and blended until they form a milky drink”. Now I have tried this, and although the flax and water mix did indeed go milky in colour, it also went rather snotty in texture. Although this is something that I can manage to pull a face, hold my nose and swallow, it’s not really enjoyment.
I have been variously creative about this problem; this is when I struck on the flax seed smoothie. Actually this is rather simple, in fact so simple that I can’t believe that it has taken me a while to come up with.
All I do is this, blend other things in with the flax and water and that seems to either mask the snottyness or to not allow it to happen. I don’t know which, I’m not a chemist or food technician, and if I was I would tell you. If you know, would you please let me in on this?
So, some good things to blend with your flax and water are:-
A banana
A few grapes
A banana and some prunes
Ripe mango
I tried a little frozen fruit as it has been hot in Dublin for the past week or so, and that’s not so good.
I’m also conscious that flax is a good source of omega 3, something that I am not 100% sure where else I would get as a vegan. From the limited reading that I have done about flax it seems that it is one of the modern snake oils of things that you should consume regularly. I mean, anything that is reported to lower cholesterol, guard against heart trouble, boosts the immune system, control haemorrhoids and diverticular disorders, reduced the incidences of various cancers, lowers high blood pressure, improves general skin condition AND make you a cup of rooibos while you are talking to the cat, can’t be sniffed at.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Another Month
I am still chipping away here. Some days I do well, others are not so worth mentioning.
The cooked food mindset and habits are really rather tough to break out of. I can’t say that I am finding this at all easy, but I know that in the long term my physical and mental health will be greatly improved
At the moment, physically, I am feeling rather blocked. Not in the sense of just being constipated, which I am, but other than that it just feels like all of my energy is being blocked by my body. So I am feeling sluggish a lot of the time. I would like to say that I can’t imagine how this happened but that would be a blatant lie. The cause of my constipation? I have three words of explanation for you. Black. Rice. Noodles. Black rice has never been a friend of mine, but I thought that the noodles would be harmless enough. It seems that they are indeed not harmless. Just one un-helping has had me reaching for the prunes and flax.
I don’t really want to go to more drastic measures of using laxatives as we all know that course of action has it’s own consequences. The more unhealthy food that I eat it seems the more my body tells me that it doesn’t like it. This being the case, why is it so hard to do what in my mind I know is right and healthful? I’m guessing it’s to do with the things that you are taught when you are growing up and it’s very hard to un-learn the lesson of eating three (or more) cooked meals a day.
There is a certain shame associated with eating badly these days. We all know what we should eat. There is no doubt that chips and falafel are no health food. When it comes to dinner time it’s actually quite hard to say no to a chip sandwich and yes to a bowl of delicious fruit salad with a few seeds on the top for good measure. Seriously, why is this? We all know that we will feel at least over full and bloated after the chips and that the fruit salad will not only fill us up perfectly but will nourish us.
Anyway, my juicer is out on my kitchen side, my hand blender is to hand and my fridge is in fairly good shape. So let’s see how much progress I can make knowing that my body is telling me that I need to take urgent action.
The cooked food mindset and habits are really rather tough to break out of. I can’t say that I am finding this at all easy, but I know that in the long term my physical and mental health will be greatly improved
At the moment, physically, I am feeling rather blocked. Not in the sense of just being constipated, which I am, but other than that it just feels like all of my energy is being blocked by my body. So I am feeling sluggish a lot of the time. I would like to say that I can’t imagine how this happened but that would be a blatant lie. The cause of my constipation? I have three words of explanation for you. Black. Rice. Noodles. Black rice has never been a friend of mine, but I thought that the noodles would be harmless enough. It seems that they are indeed not harmless. Just one un-helping has had me reaching for the prunes and flax.
I don’t really want to go to more drastic measures of using laxatives as we all know that course of action has it’s own consequences. The more unhealthy food that I eat it seems the more my body tells me that it doesn’t like it. This being the case, why is it so hard to do what in my mind I know is right and healthful? I’m guessing it’s to do with the things that you are taught when you are growing up and it’s very hard to un-learn the lesson of eating three (or more) cooked meals a day.
There is a certain shame associated with eating badly these days. We all know what we should eat. There is no doubt that chips and falafel are no health food. When it comes to dinner time it’s actually quite hard to say no to a chip sandwich and yes to a bowl of delicious fruit salad with a few seeds on the top for good measure. Seriously, why is this? We all know that we will feel at least over full and bloated after the chips and that the fruit salad will not only fill us up perfectly but will nourish us.
Anyway, my juicer is out on my kitchen side, my hand blender is to hand and my fridge is in fairly good shape. So let’s see how much progress I can make knowing that my body is telling me that I need to take urgent action.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Hello, I think you may remember me.
Hello all. I can't believe that it's been over 2 months since I posted last.
As far as going raw has been, things have been bad, by bad I mean that I have not even come close to my goal. Nevermind even being in the region of being considered a raw foodist.
Part of my problem is that my mindset is in cooked food. You know how your Mum would always feed you something that was cooked, and so you kind of feel that you didn't have a belly full until you had eaten something hot. Another of my problems is that I am actually a rather good cook, specifically I can (and often do) make a rather stunning vegan chocolate cake either for an office celebration or for birthday gifts, if that's not bad enough the chocolate sauce that is VERY heavey on the brandy will be.
So perhaps my path isn't 100% raw at the moment, or even that the case is that I am just not ready for that. Yet.
Either way, I persevere. I know from a few raw blogs that I read that I am not the only one who finds this a challenge.
As far as going raw has been, things have been bad, by bad I mean that I have not even come close to my goal. Nevermind even being in the region of being considered a raw foodist.
Part of my problem is that my mindset is in cooked food. You know how your Mum would always feed you something that was cooked, and so you kind of feel that you didn't have a belly full until you had eaten something hot. Another of my problems is that I am actually a rather good cook, specifically I can (and often do) make a rather stunning vegan chocolate cake either for an office celebration or for birthday gifts, if that's not bad enough the chocolate sauce that is VERY heavey on the brandy will be.
So perhaps my path isn't 100% raw at the moment, or even that the case is that I am just not ready for that. Yet.
Either way, I persevere. I know from a few raw blogs that I read that I am not the only one who finds this a challenge.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Just a quick post
Hello Lovelies,
This is just a quick post to let you know how I am doing with my gentle transition to raw.
Now, at the moment I am roughly half way through my first month. So my goal is to eat one raw meal a day.
So far, I have had a rather good measure of success. Some days, I will manage to eat one very good raw meal, and on occasion I haven't. I would take the attitude that it doesn't matter, but in fact how I eat does matter. How I treat my body determines how long I live and the quality of life I have.
Something that has really worked for me is blended sauces for salads and cooked food. Specifically blended red pepper, which is excellent because it is sweet, and a fantastic base to add other things like spices or tomatoes and blend in. This is something that has been a bit of a saviour on a not so good food day. Sometimes I have used soaked cashew nuts in the sauce, I must say, that as I haven't been able to get ahold of the raw nuts, I know that I am missing the point with this one.
My other go to raw food habit is smoothies. Now for a smoothie, I use frozen fruit and rice or soy milk. I know that strictly speaking this isn't raw, but it kicks the arse off a cup of coffee for a pick me up. AND if you use a lot of frozen fruit so that it is nice and thick, you feel like you have ice-cream. Now that's nothing to be sniffed at, ice cream that didn't hurt a cow and won't clog your arteries. I am going to start making smoothies with home made juices, because let's face it, it's going to be better for you than something made with a processed and sweetened milk substitute.
There is something that I am really excited about. I have signed up to do a part time course in Holistic Massage. I was thinking about trying to work less hours, and work in a more ethical industry. Because I do have an overall plan, so this will not be the last time I will study for my own personal development.
So that's how I am doing. I hope you are well, and that you have enough energy to be steadfast with the resolves you have to make your life better.
This is just a quick post to let you know how I am doing with my gentle transition to raw.
Now, at the moment I am roughly half way through my first month. So my goal is to eat one raw meal a day.
So far, I have had a rather good measure of success. Some days, I will manage to eat one very good raw meal, and on occasion I haven't. I would take the attitude that it doesn't matter, but in fact how I eat does matter. How I treat my body determines how long I live and the quality of life I have.
Something that has really worked for me is blended sauces for salads and cooked food. Specifically blended red pepper, which is excellent because it is sweet, and a fantastic base to add other things like spices or tomatoes and blend in. This is something that has been a bit of a saviour on a not so good food day. Sometimes I have used soaked cashew nuts in the sauce, I must say, that as I haven't been able to get ahold of the raw nuts, I know that I am missing the point with this one.
My other go to raw food habit is smoothies. Now for a smoothie, I use frozen fruit and rice or soy milk. I know that strictly speaking this isn't raw, but it kicks the arse off a cup of coffee for a pick me up. AND if you use a lot of frozen fruit so that it is nice and thick, you feel like you have ice-cream. Now that's nothing to be sniffed at, ice cream that didn't hurt a cow and won't clog your arteries. I am going to start making smoothies with home made juices, because let's face it, it's going to be better for you than something made with a processed and sweetened milk substitute.
There is something that I am really excited about. I have signed up to do a part time course in Holistic Massage. I was thinking about trying to work less hours, and work in a more ethical industry. Because I do have an overall plan, so this will not be the last time I will study for my own personal development.
So that's how I am doing. I hope you are well, and that you have enough energy to be steadfast with the resolves you have to make your life better.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Great day - Rubbish day
Hello Darlings,
Well the title says it all. Some days I have great days food wise and other times I have days where I eat nothing except for what is bad for my body and spirit.
Now this isn't good by any means and I am sure that everyone who embarks on making positive changes in their lives has setbacks and suffers the effects from them. It is true that every day that you treat your body well is a bonus, what concerns me is this. When I go from great food back to bad food I get days of IBS symptoms.
There are many blog articles from very successful raw foodists who say very clearly that is wise to make a transition to raw food. This is something that I think that I will do.
So my plan is this.
For one month, starting today, I will eat at least one good raw food meal a day.
After that, I will eat two raw meals a day for the next month.
And for my final two months of transition. I will eat either three raw meals a day allowing for a cooked snack or two raw meals with a raw snack.
How does this sound? Too much? Too slow?
I know that success is it's own reward and for this particular task good health is a much further reaching advantage.
Now my challenges this week are that I have my partner's Mum over for dinner this Friday evening, and we are going out for dinner with friends on Saturday. Phew, quite a busy weekend, actually a bit busier than I would like especially seeing as I would like to sit down and sew for a few hours.
So, seeing as it is Tuesday today, and it's still morning, I have 6 opportunities to succeed at my raw food goals this week. Today is more or less in the bag so to speak as I have packed myself a large salad, a couple of blood oranges and an organic apple.
Well the title says it all. Some days I have great days food wise and other times I have days where I eat nothing except for what is bad for my body and spirit.
Now this isn't good by any means and I am sure that everyone who embarks on making positive changes in their lives has setbacks and suffers the effects from them. It is true that every day that you treat your body well is a bonus, what concerns me is this. When I go from great food back to bad food I get days of IBS symptoms.
There are many blog articles from very successful raw foodists who say very clearly that is wise to make a transition to raw food. This is something that I think that I will do.
So my plan is this.
For one month, starting today, I will eat at least one good raw food meal a day.
After that, I will eat two raw meals a day for the next month.
And for my final two months of transition. I will eat either three raw meals a day allowing for a cooked snack or two raw meals with a raw snack.
How does this sound? Too much? Too slow?
I know that success is it's own reward and for this particular task good health is a much further reaching advantage.
Now my challenges this week are that I have my partner's Mum over for dinner this Friday evening, and we are going out for dinner with friends on Saturday. Phew, quite a busy weekend, actually a bit busier than I would like especially seeing as I would like to sit down and sew for a few hours.
So, seeing as it is Tuesday today, and it's still morning, I have 6 opportunities to succeed at my raw food goals this week. Today is more or less in the bag so to speak as I have packed myself a large salad, a couple of blood oranges and an organic apple.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Happy New Year! (catch up post)
Hello lovelies. I hope that you are all well.
I said in my last post that I had more to tell you about my time visiting my family, here goes.
Now, if you are in my family and you stumble across this blog, I am sorry if you are offended by anything I write and I appreciate that I am on a much different path to you. Hopefully you will read what I have written and just know a little more about me.
So, my original flight over to stay with my parents was cancelled. Their local airport was shut down down to fog. Not a problem, I rescheduled to go and see them after Christmas. It was quickly evident that things are not well with either of my parents. My Mum is suffering with various physical complaints and my Dad, well he just seems out of sorts. It was good to see them, and it would have been good to stay with them for longer, but I just couldn't.
I haven't told you that I come from a family of smokers and I am an ex-smoker myself. Not only are my family smokers, but they seem to have missed the part where you make an effort when someone visits you and perhaps smoke a few less, or even open a window. So, my parents chain smoke, in front of me, with no window open. Then my sister comes round, we have an uneasy relationship for a number of reasons, she looks to be in bad health, and after years of being off the fags, she is back smoking.
After just a few hours at my parents' house, I could actually feel the smoke poisoning me. My chest was heavy and I was having trouble breathing. When I was ready for bed, I went up to my old room, and I just couldn't sleep more than an hour. My chest was so tight, everything stunk of cigarettes, my body was warning me that I was being poisoned and that I should get out!!
So, I sent my boyfriend a text message asking him to book me into a hotel. I explained to my parents that i just had to get out because of the cigarettes and I left that evening, stayed in a hotel on my own and basically wasted some useful time off and not a small amount of money.
Now, I haven't spoken to my parents about this, and I would guess that they have taken a very dim view of me leaving their house. I would hope that this event will spur them on to reduce the number of cigarettes that they smoke.
I could rant for pages and pages about the addictive nature of smoking and how hard it is to stop. At the end of the day what I don't understand is this. Everyone, none the least my parents, are looking for ways to have a bit more money in their hands, be that through living a little more leniently, turning the heating down, reducing the miles that you drive. Whatever it is, I can't believe that someone will try many things to save money but still smoke packs and packs of cigarettes which is essentially burning your money.
Breathe in - breathe out. Yes my family's smoking is a sore point, I feel so powerless to help them stop.
Now there are other things that aren't well with my family, an elderly relation is in very bad health, a younger relation is making some decisions that she will most likely regret in years to come.
None of this I am in a position to change or help with, so, I hope that I am endowed with the sensitivity and knowledge to be able to help them should any of them be receptive to help.
To you, I wish you a happy new year, and that you have the energy and foresight to complete things that are sent your way.
I said in my last post that I had more to tell you about my time visiting my family, here goes.
Now, if you are in my family and you stumble across this blog, I am sorry if you are offended by anything I write and I appreciate that I am on a much different path to you. Hopefully you will read what I have written and just know a little more about me.
So, my original flight over to stay with my parents was cancelled. Their local airport was shut down down to fog. Not a problem, I rescheduled to go and see them after Christmas. It was quickly evident that things are not well with either of my parents. My Mum is suffering with various physical complaints and my Dad, well he just seems out of sorts. It was good to see them, and it would have been good to stay with them for longer, but I just couldn't.
I haven't told you that I come from a family of smokers and I am an ex-smoker myself. Not only are my family smokers, but they seem to have missed the part where you make an effort when someone visits you and perhaps smoke a few less, or even open a window. So, my parents chain smoke, in front of me, with no window open. Then my sister comes round, we have an uneasy relationship for a number of reasons, she looks to be in bad health, and after years of being off the fags, she is back smoking.
After just a few hours at my parents' house, I could actually feel the smoke poisoning me. My chest was heavy and I was having trouble breathing. When I was ready for bed, I went up to my old room, and I just couldn't sleep more than an hour. My chest was so tight, everything stunk of cigarettes, my body was warning me that I was being poisoned and that I should get out!!
So, I sent my boyfriend a text message asking him to book me into a hotel. I explained to my parents that i just had to get out because of the cigarettes and I left that evening, stayed in a hotel on my own and basically wasted some useful time off and not a small amount of money.
Now, I haven't spoken to my parents about this, and I would guess that they have taken a very dim view of me leaving their house. I would hope that this event will spur them on to reduce the number of cigarettes that they smoke.
I could rant for pages and pages about the addictive nature of smoking and how hard it is to stop. At the end of the day what I don't understand is this. Everyone, none the least my parents, are looking for ways to have a bit more money in their hands, be that through living a little more leniently, turning the heating down, reducing the miles that you drive. Whatever it is, I can't believe that someone will try many things to save money but still smoke packs and packs of cigarettes which is essentially burning your money.
Breathe in - breathe out. Yes my family's smoking is a sore point, I feel so powerless to help them stop.
Now there are other things that aren't well with my family, an elderly relation is in very bad health, a younger relation is making some decisions that she will most likely regret in years to come.
None of this I am in a position to change or help with, so, I hope that I am endowed with the sensitivity and knowledge to be able to help them should any of them be receptive to help.
To you, I wish you a happy new year, and that you have the energy and foresight to complete things that are sent your way.
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